25–Joey
I was alone
Again.
Laying in the big bed, I stared at the indentation left in the pillow by Alex. His side of the bed was still rumpled the sheets and pillow smelling of his cologne. My gaze shifted to where I’d seen his suitcase the night before.
It was gone as well and I closed my eyes, holding back tears,
Alex was gone.
He’d comforted me the night before, not taking advantage of me… and then he’d left me alone, with my broken heart. Opening my eyes, I lifted myself into a seated position and looked around the room, my gaze falling on my clothes, neatly folded on the top of my handbag, which had been left on a chair.
I climbed out of bed and walked over to the bag, picking up my clothes and looked at the piece of paper that had been left underneath them. A little thing I found endearing from Alex
Smiling, I picked up the note and dropped the clothing back into the bag and returned to bed, this time, climbing into Alex’s side.
I unfolded the note, and a business card fell out onto my lap,
I picked it up and looked at it.
The black card, with gold writing, and a beautiful red dragon on the front.
Kazumi Enterprises
I flipped over the card and looked at the address. He’d given me the place where he worked. Looking back at the front of the card I smiled. He owned his own business.
So, success ran in the family.
Alex with his company, Jake with his.
Putting the card to the side, I looked at Alex’s neat handwriting and read his note.
Jory,
I wish I could stay longer.
I wish I could comfort you and hold you, until all your broken pieces stuck back together… but that wouldn’t be fair on
either of us.
What we had, while spectacular… like you reminded me… can’t happen again.
Jake and I haven’t always seen eye to eye and right now, I would love to smack him one, for what he’s done to you.
I can’t be the bad guy.
I’ve lived like that for too long.
My hand came to my mouth as I kept reading and it felt like my heart was being ripped out all over again. I wanted to crumple the note up and throw it across the room. I didn’t want to see what else was written, what else would completely rip my heart out. I didn’t throw the note but kept reading, in the hopes it wouldn’t hurt.
I hope you can move on from my brother. He doesn’t deserve to have someone like you in his life and you deserve so much better.
Please, don’t be too hard on yourself, you are incredible.
Beautiful
Intoxicating.
And too good for me
Please take care of yourself.
If you ever need a shoulder
cry on again, I’ve left my card.
Love always
Alex.
My eyes closed and I let the note fall to my lap. My hands came up to my face and I burst into tears, wracking sobs taking over my body as Alex’s words replayed in my mind over and over again.
Why were the Kazumi boys so cruel?
Firstly, it was Jake, breaking my heart then his brother, using me and breaking my heart in a completely different way He’d been so kind, so gentle, so… loving, then for him to leave that note… it was too much for me to deal with
Kolling to the side, curling up into a ball. I cried and cried until I became angry.
I was done with this shit.
Where was justice in my love life?
I’d been set free of Jake, by him marrying Phoebe, only to fall into another trap with Alex.
Was Ia simpleton Was I a sucker who just liked the punishment of having my heart broken over and over? Did I have EASY or LOSER written in neon on my forehead? Was I that simple to read and use?
Crying myself dry, I rolled onto my back and stared up at the ceiling,
The tears I’d cried only moments earlier, dried on my cheeks and I stared at the ornate ceiling rose. From this moment forward, things had to change.
I had to take charge of my life and be more in control.
If I didn’t, then I would send myself insane, pining after men who didn’t give a fuck about me, or my emotions.
Sating up, I looked down at the card and note Alex had left me and picked them up, dropping them to the bin beside the
bed.
That’s what I thought about has poor excuse for an apology, and his justification for leaving me like this.
Fuck him and lus brother.
Climbing out of bed. I rage–showered, scrubbing my whole body almost red raw, changed into clean clothes and packed my hag. Looking around the room, I was ready to move on from this nightmare… until my gaze fell on the small bin
A pang of guilt sprared into my stomach
Maybe Alex had his reasons to leave. He did say he had to be back in New York tomorrow, that his boss was demanding… Sigling. I walked over to at and pulled the note and card out of their confines and shoved them into the depths of my bag. Maybe I might truly throw them out, when I got back to my apartment. With them safely entombed in my bag. I took one last look around the room which had been my safe harbor for the night and turned Walking past the sofa which Alex and I had fucked on on Thursday night. I left the opulent hotel room.
On the ride down in the elevator. I decided on one thing
I was definitely
going to take m
my Pa’s advice and leave.
There was absolutely nothing keeping me here and with a sudden clarity, I realized there had never been anything keeping
me here
Even Jake had been a fantasy I should have killed off long ago.
Leaving the hotel and hailing a cab, I sank into the back seat and headed back to my barren apartment, with a plan in
It was time for ror to put myself first
I was done with Mean
